This post may be a bit exposing for me. For those who know me, none of what I’m about to say will surprise you. But, for those who may not know me or are in the process of getting to know me – well, let’s just say you’ll know me really well after this post.
You may shout and scream AMEN after reading this.
You may scratch your head and think I’m weird.
You may not know what to EVEN do with this.
All of that’s okay.
I love you. He loves you. And we’re in this thing together.
So, here it goes…
The Lord is doing something…in churches, in bedrooms, in closets, in retails stores. Like, He’s waking up His church. I’m struggling with the right words to use, but something is shifting spiritually. I can feel it. I’ve sensed it for a while now, and just kept quietly going about my business. But, what happened this week got my attention.
I am a mom. I’m also a preacher (eh – something like that – I don’t know what to call myself these days. Can I just say I’m a crazy Jesus lover? That sounds better) That being said, it’s no secret I can be what some may call a little fiery.
So, those two combined can be interesting.
I love my kids. Like CRAZY.
One of my faults is that I put a TON of pressure on myself as a parent. It’s something God has been working on with me for a while, and we still have a ways to go.
I am my hardest critic in the mom department. And I will be the FIRST to give you the rundown of every single failure (I know this isn’t good. God and I are working on it).
One of the things I’m known for (especially after we’ve had a hard day and I feel like I’ve completely blown it) is that I will go in the girls’ room and pray over them while they are sleeping (this is where the crazy Jesus lover piece comes in)
During those nights, God has given me some of the most amazing prophetic words to speak over them. Those prayer moments are some of the sweetest times between me and my girls…and they aren’t even awake; but I treasure them.
All that being said, my kids really have no idea how I pray over them because they are asleep when I’m usually doing it.
BUT, one of the things the Holy Spirit led me to pray over my two middle ones years ago, was that the prophetic gifting the Lord has given me would be given to them in a double portion.
I remember thinking it was kinda crazy to pray (like how much of that gift does one person actually need? Lol) But, I went with it. He had me pray that numerous times over them.
All of this leads to what happened this week.
So, I’m tucking the two of them in bed and I just felt like the Lord wanted me to pray in the spirit over them (okay, if that sentence freaks you out, it’s ok. Not everyone is comfortable with that, and I totally get it. I don’t think everyone has to speak in tongues and I don’t think you’re less of a Christian if you don’t. BUT, I also believe it’s super powerful and something that has totally transformed my prayer life. Can we still be friends?) 🙂
So, I’m praying over them quietly while stroking their hair when one of mine pops out of bed and says she HAS to pray in the spirit or she would burst.
I sat back and was like…okay, then.
So, I let her go for it.
And, people – I kid you not, she EXPLODED with the spirit of God. She sat up, laid her hands on her sister and began to pray intensely in the spirit over her.
(We don’t go to a church where this is shown. We don’t really do this in our home in front of them either. This is not something she has seen to my knowledge)
It caught me off guard, BUT, I know how to hear the Lord and I kept in tune with him the entire time. And, while she was praying I felt like He gave me the interpretation of what she had prayed.
I calmly sat back and explained what I felt the Lord wanted to say to her sister. And in the middle of what I was saying, my daughter (the now spirit filled prayer warrior) interrupts me and FINISHES WHAT I WAS GOING TO SAY.
My 7 year old daughter was prophesying and saying the EXACT same things the Lord was telling me while we were praying.
I can’t even believe I just typed that sentence.
What amazed me through the entire experience was how effortless and pure it was. There were no hidden motives or agendas. No one was getting all worked up and trying to manifest some experience. It was just….gentle and peaceful. It was beautiful. Yet, extremely powerful.
There is purity in a child that you and I don’t have.
We simply don’t have it.
And when that purity collides with the power of the Holy Spirit (the same spirit that raised Christ from the dead, fell on the believers in the book of Acts, cast out demons and healed the sick) it is like nothing I’ve ever witnessed before.
A good friend of mine recently attended one of Todd White’s power and love conferences (SO JEALOUS). When she came back she had so many amazing things to tell me about, but one thing she said that stood out to me was about a 7 year old boy at the conference. This sweet little boy was (apparently) filled with the Holy Spirit. He was going around laying hands on the sick and they were all being healed. Like over and over.
My heart swelled when she told me that story.
Because after my own little encounter with my prophesying daughter, I knew the innocence and the power that the spirit can release in willing vessels. Especially in ones that aren’t hindered by the same things that grown-ups are.
(Like, What will people think? Am I crazy? Does this stuff really happen? What if I pray and it doesn’t work?)
Children don’t think that way.
And I have to believe that is why scripture says, In the last days, God says, I will pour out my Spirit on all people. Your sons and daughters will prophesy, your young men will see visions, your old men will dream dreams Acts 2:17
I love Jesus. And I believe the Holy Spirit is the most powerful thing on earth. I also believe I am compelled to scream (through writing or teaching or whatever God has me do) about how much we need the Holy Spirit.
Especially in the church. Especially in this culture. Especially in the generation we are in.
We can’t be afraid of it.
We can’t ignore it.
We can’t grieve it.
The tide is changing. We must pick up our weapons and fight darkness. Sometimes it’s a lonely fight. Sometimes you may feel like you’re all alone. But, believe me sisters and brothers, you’re not alone.
God is raising up His church…it just may not be the kind you are used to. It may not be the seasoned pastor who lays hands on the sick and sees them healed. It may be a 7 year old child.
For an answer Jesus called over a child, whom he stood in the middle of the room, and said, “I’m telling you, once and for all, that unless you return to square one and start over like children, you’re not even going to get a look at the kingdom, let alone get in. Whoever becomes simple and elemental again, like this child, will rank high in God’s kingdom. What’s more, when you receive the childlike on my account, it’s the same as receiving me. Matt 18:3 (MSG)